I love writing. I do it when I can, or when my muse decides it's time to come out of hibernation. My muse is this itty bitty bear of a slightly purplish color, who sits on my shoulder during writing season and literally HUMS at me. I don't know, I guess the vibrations are similar enought to music to help me write.

I guess I'd never really thought about it, but music IS my number one inspiration for writing.

Not events in my life - although that's happened once or twice - but music, the songs I listen to. And, as sad as it sounds, it's usually things like Evanescence or Three Days Grace; things that make you sad or angry. I think this is because when I first started writing, I was going through the angsty teenage phase of "my life sucks" meets "I effing hate your guts" - meh, I guess this could be a plus, it helped me get through my redheaded jerk of an ex boyfriend. :3 I listened to a lot of sad music then, and it helped me write, to let all that supressed teenagedness overflow onto paper. Or the keyboard. Pretty much whatever I could reach.

So, I'm sitting here, listening to Nickelback's "How You Remind Me" and I'm coming up blank.

Well, that's a first.

I mean, not the first time I've had writers block, that happens all the time. Like when Zerra goes to sleep. (That's the bear.) I used to have this one muse who was an albino humming bird, but one of my friends is in love with albino things AND feathers, separate or together, so I gifted her with this little flying creation of mine. I can't seem to keep a muse. But that's besides the point. I'm listening to all these angsty songs, and nothing's happening. I can't seem to get a single word out. I have this book I'm writing, and it's not going anywhere. I know part of this is how busy I am, but what about the other part? I've got it all planned out, I can even see it in my head, and still nothing.

Maybe I'm losing it. Maybe I just need to wait a little while longer, see if Zerra will wake up long enough to help. Or maybe I just need to refresh muses. She's been asleep longer than usual, and everytime she goes to sleep, it takes her a little longer to wake up.

And I realize I sound crazy. Muse is simply ones inspirtation, right? I just find it easier if I have a visual; just like I roleplay my charactrers over online communities. It helps me develop the character, as well as my own skill.

I don't know. If I don't get anything in the next few weeks I may have to try something drastic.

Then again, it being five thirty in the morning might have something to do with it.

<3 Always
Kitten